Emotional Roller Coaster

For whatever reason the situation going on with me has impacted my son and he is now having negative feelings towards the one who has hurt me so bad. Can't say that it is not expected. Though I need him to be strong through this as well, and he is supporting me in whatever decision it is I make.

There is a time when we have all been told "To be careful what we wish for, because we just might get it." And I'm leaning very seriously towards granting their wishes. And if they want me to move on should I stay and stand my ground or grant their desires? Granting their desires seems to be the right thing as we are both adults and have had numerous life experiences. As staying and standing my ground surely seems confrontational and fraught with dealing with a much longer emotional roller coaster.

Sure there are things to learn from this. We as humans would be remiss if we did not learn from everything that goes on in our lives. The good things are easy to learn from the bad things we sometimes tend to rationalize away, as well it was meant to be or it was their doing, not mine. But it exactly those thoughts we must look at the most and learn the most from.

My current outlook is good my mood good. Who knows where the roller coaster will lead next, as  I'm riding blindfolded.

Just need to simply pray and put my faith in where it is God would have me be.

Pain and It's many Varied Forms - continued

What an emotional roller coaster I've been on the last couple of days.

Well it seems as though this is to be a one way street. In that the other is not seeing that there could conceivably be any part of this that belongs to them. As they are asking me to seek professional help to resolve the problem. Yet it took both of us to get to this point.

It appears to me though there could be some addiction transfer occurring as well. To me I find this rather disturbing, although if the underlying issues of the first problem were not addressed, as I know they were not, then this is a very real possibility.

They also have not been taking all of their prescribed medications and or supplements, which in my thinking is also causing some of the issues we are seeing.

It is a shame as I care for this person deeply, yet they seem to be not willing to take care of themselves even though they are very capable of doing so.

Pain and it's many varied forms.

Today, I was presented with a bombshell, out of the blue. Someone I care for has decided we need to move on.

After reviewing what was said there are points that I will agree are of my doing but this is also a two way street.

There seems to be no reconciliation available and they are not willing to work towards any.

So this is life.

Mother always said;

"Life is not fair. But it goes on."

She was so correct. God Bless her.

Ones Pain - Anothers Pleasure

As I write this I have come to realize that what we individually enjoy, could be very painful for others. For example I find it very pleasurable to have my nipples twisted, bit and so forth and yet there are many many people who are completely turned off by this.

Yet it is their choice as it is mine. So I will not begrudge them at all, so long as they respect my rights. In that while they may not agree with my lifestyle do not mandate the lifestyle I choose to live is wrong.

Because what lifestyle is the so called "Correct" lifestyle? Sure there are many definitions, but the only one that comes to mind is to "Love" and if you live in Love than you will not harm each other.

Yes this has gotten rather philosophical and really does require thought.

Enjoy!